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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 00:53

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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Would this be the day?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

All the time i was locked up.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Im still living with it.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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Comes on , in middle age.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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She married twice! .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

How is it not psychopathic to use someone for sex, even if they agree?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He resisted the act ,that day.

But it wasn’t much.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was seconnd youngest,

Especially a lifetime of it.

She loved him until the end.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I have no regrets .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My life is so biszare .

She was in good health!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And i lived it daily.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I waited trembling.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We all went to grammer schools

Ive learnt so much.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But, we were locked up after school.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

It was going to be , some day.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He knew the spot.

I think the readers, may guess!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

One cannot live in the past .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

What did i know ?

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Put me off passion for life!!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was 9 years of age.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was scared of men, in general

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I write beautiful poetry .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We were not on the streets..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

So whats the point in blame.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

This is soul school!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I will be 64.

I was very sick at this time too.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

So, i spoilt her more .

My family never makes their pension either.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Who then, do I blame.?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I don,t even have a pension.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She wouldn,t have been !

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I said to her

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But ive been too sick for many years..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

When she asked me how she looked .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She found it foreign!.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..