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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 01:06

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Could humans be selectively bred, like dogs, to create 2 subspecies that can no longer have offspring? Do I not understand selective breeding properly? Im not worried about the moral implications, just the science please.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was very sick at this time too.

He knew the spot.

What melts your heart every time without fail?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

How often do prisoners try to escape from jail/prison, and how many of them succeed?

Who then, do I blame.?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

What made you stop being an addict?

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

This is soul school!.

Why do creationists ask for proof of evolution and then ignore the answers?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Why didn’t Obito confront Kakashi after he witnessed him kill Rin?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Are miracles real or do they just have natural explanations?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

How can I fall asleep fast at night?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I’m running away I live in Indiana what states near by are safe I’m 12 no comments?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Did another parent ever tell you something about your child that you didn’t know?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And i lived it daily.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Atheists who have read the Bible and think that contains immoral things, why do you assume that?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Put me off passion for life!!

I was seconnd youngest,

How are Hinduism and Sikhism related, considering they both originated in Punjab, India?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Mariners' vibes turn ugly after sweep: 'Nobody feels sorry for us' - The Seattle Times

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

How do I know if he loves me? When he wants me to be his gf he make time for me and send me morning and night messages and done everything to melt my heart. Now I am his gf and he don't treat me that way now.

I said to her

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I think the readers, may guess!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I have no regrets .

She wouldn,t have been !

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One cannot live in the past .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

My family never makes their pension either.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

(And it was in our own minds.)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

So, i spoilt her more .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But it wasn’t much.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Especially a lifetime of it.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I was scared of men, in general

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She was in good health!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I will be 64.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Comes on , in middle age.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I could never make a relationship work though!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I don,t even have a pension.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I waited trembling.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He resisted the act ,that day.

Ive learnt so much.

But, we were locked up after school.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

All the time i was locked up.

What did i know ?

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She loved him until the end.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She found it foreign!.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

It was going to be , some day.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

When she asked me how she looked .

My life is so biszare .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We were not on the streets..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But ive been too sick for many years..

I write beautiful poetry .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I couldn’t, believe it.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I was 9 years of age.

She married twice! .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Im still living with it.

We all went to grammer schools

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Would this be the day?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So whats the point in blame.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.